There was a time I thought everyone would celebrate my growth…..
I was so excited changing my habits, reconnecting with Allah, finally choosing to live with intention.
But the moment I shared it… the room went quiet.
A laugh.
A side-eye.
A quick change of subject.It felt small on the outside.
But inside? It stung.
Like my heart was being told:“Don’t try too hard. Don’t be that person.”
And for a while, I believed it….
Why So Many of Us Hide What Matters Most
I know I’m not the only one.
I hear it from sisters all the time:
“I tried to talk about my goals, and they made me feel silly.”
“My family doesn’t take me seriously when I want to change.”
“It’s easier to stay quiet than risk being mocked.”
We don’t realize how much those moments shape us.
We start shrinking. Filtering. Doubting.
But the truth?
It’s fear.
The fear of rejection for loving Allah openly.
And then, when our routines fall apart, we blame ourselves:
“I’m lazy. I’m not consistent. I’ll never change.”
The Hidden Cost
When that fear settles in, it doesn’t just affect your conversations.
It seeps into your habits, your energy, your iman.
You pray but without presence.
You try to restart but the joy is gone.
You want closeness to Allah but part of you is guarding against being mocked again.
And suddenly, the spiral begins:
Start strong. Hit the wall.
Self-sabotage. Shame. Start over.
Because your heart is carrying a wound you never named.
A Different Way to Rebuild
Healing doesn’t start with more pressure.
It starts with safety.
Not safety from the world but safety within yourself.
The permission to love what you love without apology.
The courage to say: “This is me. This is what I was created for. And Allah is enough.”
When that shift happens, everything changes.
Habits begin to land.
Routines begin to flow.
You’re no longer fighting yourself.
A Glimpse Into My Reflections
This hidden struggle being mocked for loving what matters most has touched my own life too.
When I changed my hijab, I thought people would see my sincerity. Instead, I was met with laughter, teasing, and comments that cut deep.
But through that pain, Allah was teaching me something greater:
That true dignity isn’t given by people.
It’s anchored in how Allah sees you.
That reflection is tied to Surah At-Tawbah (9:65) where Allah describes those who mocked His signs. It reminded me that being laughed at for obedience is nothing compared to losing His pleasure.
👉 [Watch the reflection here]
May it remind you: when people mock what you love for Allah, it is not your shame to carry. Your honor is safe with Him.
Coming Next
In my next reflection, I want to share a verse that shook me to my core Al-Baqarah (2:175).
It describes those who trade the Hereafter for this world… and how they become so patient toward the hellfire.
That ayah terrified me, because it made me realize: some of us are already practicing patience just in the wrong direction.
I’ll be writing about how that verse changed the way I look at my daily choices, and why it might be the most urgent reminder for us today.
With Love always
Wahida
